Meet You in St. Louis

I can not believe that this year has passed so very quickly. Thinking back, I remember all my family members telling me how fast time passes as you age, and I had no clue. Grey has grown into a miniature man already with all of his walking and talking. Big and I are unofficially living together and are extremely happy with our little "family". Tucker is the center of our universe and that is just how we like it. At this point we think he is about 112lbs and he is under the impression that he is a lap dog. Too funny, right?

With a new year comes new beginnings for me. Kyla, my person, is moving to St. Louis for a new job and a new life. I am completely excited for her taking a huge leap and getting to renew life as she knows it, but I can't help but feel selfish in wanting to keep her here. She will be getting a great job that will relieve her of the many stresses she has in her life, and for that I am grateful. But for the life of me I have no clue how to exist without seeing her face ever day or laughing with her constantly. I know that she isn't moving to Tibet or anything, but I just loved having heart to hearts with her face to face. She and I just understand each other on a molecular level. We catch each other finishing sentences or correcting mistakes because we know what the other one really meant. She is and always will be a special sister to me. Just as much family as my own Bug is to me. I will miss her every single day. However hard this may be, I have to keep smiling and keep my chin up because she is struggling with the loss of Tennessee as it is. She has assured me on multiple occasions that we will talk constantly and I really do hope so because I don't think I can stomach the loss of another friend. I bet you guys out there don't know that this isn't the first but the second job we've had together and it has been amazing and an ultimate pleasure working with such a close friend. I know that she will do excellent no matter where she travels and she will wow whom ever she meets. I just hope I can quickly learn to cope without her in my day to day life. I also hope she misses me just as much as I will yearn for her. I am sure that she will.
So Kyla, this blog is for you my deary. You sent me the other day saying that you relationships never work. It has stuck with me every since. They do work because it has worked with me. We will just be the loves of each others lives forever. I love you baby girl.

Until next time, does anybody have a tissue? Because I will need them.

The Reason

I am so very sorry for those of you who read this, that I haven't blogged in quite some time. With great joy I will tell you that I have been busy with Big decorating for Christmas and purchasing useless things for everyone. Ok, so they are not useless, they are awesome!
Saturday I had to run up to the office to check on a few things so while I was out I had the bright idea to brave shopping for Big something. Oh my good gracious! The parking lots were just as congested as every one's colds have been. It was just simply, insane. Two out of five stops were accomplished, but that was plenty thank you. Everyone seemed so grouchy and stressed and I had to ponder on when did the most wonderful time of the year stop being so wonderful? Money is so tight everywhere, but people don't want to disappoint their kiddos so they charge up the cards that got us all in trouble to begin with. It was like a marathon race in Target. I tried to get completely finished with everyone but gave up due to the crowds of rude people and screaming kids. Now, I love children and understand how people can't find child care at the drop of a hat sometimes, but seriously people come on! It was a nightmare. So I got the essentials that I needed other than Christmas (aka Tide) and hit the road.
Ever since Thanksgiving we have been saying over and over that we needed to get the lights outside up and running because we look so scrooge in the back of the cove without color or illumination when the neighbors on both sides look like they live at the Griswold's. The guy to the left of us even has a huge arch of lights that they all have to drive under in order to enter a mini version of Christmas city that is equipped with that program with the music. You know the one I am talking about where it plays music and the lights on the house "dance" along with the beat. Now, I love lights like any other kid but we just can't pay the light bill on that kind of extravaganza. Big did decide that we were in desperate need of some wattage so the bushes were decorated and there are two huge trees on the front stoop along with two smaller ones in front of them. All of the lights are white, unlike the neighbors who decided on multicolored all except the four white deer in a row, and are quite classy if you ask us.
Tucker has made up his little mind this year to ignore the fact there are four new additions to the decor in the house. The large tree was placed in the dining room in hopes that he wouldn't knock it over. Now I think it wouldn't have mattered where we put it because he just will glance right over it like he doesn't care at all. I do think he has liked that we have been leaving him in the house unattended while we run errands here lately. He has been such a super good boy too.
All and all it has been a decent holiday season so far and hopefully any more shopping I need to do can all be done online. People remember the reason for this season.

I have a twitter account, geesh who doesn't these days, and I follow @dailybible which sends me a bible verse every morning. Other than occasional emails of devotion from my Nana, love you, this could be the only piece of the word I receive some days. The one I got this morning was, " She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn." Luke 2:7
He is the reason we all are here, but not the reason we are stressed. I am putting faith in him everyday that he will carry me through.
Until next time, I will try not to be as much of a stranger and Happy Holidays!