Short Work Week

Does anybody remember when we were younger and the holidays meant time off from daycare or school? I remember being so very excited when I knew that I would get some free time off from my busy schedule as a kid and not worrying one bit about how I could manage my free time. I was never concerned about getting all the school work in that I could before I had to be off! However, now that I am the captain of the ship over here at the lab I am so worried about getting everything out, faxed, called, posted, printed, scanned, and just done! After I actually get out of the office I'm sure that I won't be worried, maybe. Even now I think about what needs to get done after I return from Thanksgiving holiday also how everything has to be done before January and there I go again........ aah, to be a kid again.


I'm trying very hard to be upbeat and happy these days, even though the weather during this time of year tends to get me down, among other things. I think because I was born in the summer and I almost wish it was sunny all the time. To be honest, I always feel out of place during the holiday season. When I was small I wondered when I could stop running here there and everywhere to all the functions that we had to appear at. I loved visiting the family members and catching up with all of my loved ones. Nowadays, I just want to dodge all the questions about me and my life as it is at this point. Of course, these people all love me dearly, but I just keep thinking they somehow feel a pang of disappointment when asking about school, job, boyfriend, and life in general. This has been a good job year for me. After getting the promotion I have experienced a new sensation of responsibility and stress. Which is good and bad in most cases. It has kept me distracted and very busy at times, and other times I stay up and worry about all the things that need to get done. As far as school is concerned, I contemplate going back soon and how I will work around the schedule and the finances. Finishing is a must these days in order to survive comfortably but I can't seem to decide just what I want to be. There are things that I dream of being but they seem very out of reach for me sometimes. Money pretty much consumes my thoughts most every day. I suppose that's part of being an adult and it kind of stinks! On the boyfriend front, no luck so far. Of all the questions and subjects of conversation, this is the most difficult for me to swallow and discuss. I know, and am often reminded, that I have plenty of time to settle down and have a family. At this point I should get to focus on me and just be in my youth, but I can't shake the feeling I should be doing something with more of a purpose than just existing. There have been promising aspects in the past year, but it recently occurred to me that maybe I was the only one putting forth effort. Needless to say, it doesn't look as promising as before and that's okay with me. Actually, most of these details are somewhat okay with me, however; to others they seem unconventional. What does that even mean? Who wrote the rule book anyway? I don't really have any of the answers for me or most of anyone around me.

All details aside, I'm so thankful for Grey and all the joy he has brought with him. Being around his sweet face and all the little noises he makes is so rewarding. Saturday night was the very first time I babysat him all by myself. I'm sure his Mommy was nervous but we made it alright. I just love being around him and am so glad he's in my house. Kasey, Grey, and I spent most of the weened together. It felt so much like normal to me. Hard to imagine now what we even did before he came.

For now, I need to get back to my very crazy work week that is short. Again, just very stressful trying to complete all the tasks in three days instead of five. I'm excited about being off more than I can say.....

Bye.

Meggie