Pray for You

As I turned onto a major road this morning on my way to work, I was vigorously flipping radio channels and stumbled across a tune I had never heard before. I just turned it down due to irritation with the same songs always being on the radio and became lost in my thoughts. I was far away in my thoughts when the lyrics to this song caught my attention. I couldn't help but crank it up and almost died with laughter. Anyone that has ever had their heart torn out and stomped on can absolutely relate to this song.

Bravo!

"Pray for You"

Jaron and the Long Road to Love

I haven't been to church since I don’t remember when

Things were goin’ great ‘til they fell apart again

So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do

He said you can’t go hatin’ others who have done wrong to you

Sometimes we get angry, but we must not condemn

Let the good Lord do His job and you just pray for them

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill

I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to

I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls

I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls

I pray all your dreams never come true

Just know where ever you are honey, I pray for you

I’m really glad I found my way to church

‘Cause I’m already feelin’ better and I thank God for the words

Yeah I’m goin’ take the high road

And do what the preacher told me to do

You keep messin’ up and I’ll keep prayin’ for you

I pray your tire blows out at 110

I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend and wake up with his and her tattoos

I pray your brakes go out runnin’ down a hill

I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill and knocks you in the head like I’d like to

I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls

I pray you’re flyin’ high when your engine stalls

I pray all your dreams never come true

Just know where ever you are, near or far, in your house or in your car, wherever you are honey, I pray for you. I pray for you

Until next time, if you are feeling this way or wishing bad things on another, please know that love will eventually find you!

No Doubt

My Mr. Big and I had a strange conversation last night about whether or not we would change if we got married. You guys read it right, married! I sat a bit dumbfounded for a second and then mumbled something about money and my last name changing. He just stared right into my eyes and said, "that's not really what I meant". What he meant was "us" as in our day to day life together and how we feel about each other. I shifted nervously while he just smiled. Like every time I want to avoid answering first, I looked up and asked what he thought. His response was simply, No. He doesn't think we would loose love or anything that makes the two of us special together, however; he wasn't on one knee either. Big takes his time with the big decisions which I think is very responsible and grown up of him to be that way. Naturally, I follow him when it comes to things like this because unlike him, I am emotional and a bit more irrational with life. I like to think it's a passion for living, but most of the time it's something I have to keep in check.

As I tossed and turned last night, I wondered if I deserve this type of happiness and joy. Oh, I know my friends and family would say that I would but I find myself being afraid.

Not afraid of him, or being with him but being afraid of the bottom falling out of it and then I am back to square one all over again. There is no doubt in my mind that Big is going to be a wonderful man for all of his existence and so I should take great comfort in that fact. I do have the utmost confidence in him and his ability to love and care for me, but what about forever?

How do we ladies know when it is time to drop down the walls we have built? I am at a point now where I have to remind myself on a daily basis that he isn't the enemy and shouldn't be kept on the other side of a huge barrier away from a place where he could really know me. He wants nothing more than for us to be ourselves and just be happy every single day. I mean, come on, what girl isn't looking for this? I do love him deeply and wouldn't trade any of our time for anything right now so I should just pray for confidence in myself. I had myself convinced that I would have to settle in some ways with men for the rest of my life. I do not feel that way at all with him. He gives back just as much as he takes from me which is the way it should be in relationships. I guess of everyone I know, I am just shocked that such a sweet man has happened to me.

For my single readers out there that are still reading and not vomiting right now, it's out there girls. Do not settle or completely give up!!!! I was about to and I am so very happy that I didn't because I would have missed out on my care-free, no drama life. Just hang in there. If he isn't treating you well please don't walk but run away as fast as you can. You may be getting in your own way or letting others persuade you. Know that love is out there and that this nonbeliever found it.

Until next time, whoever it is doing the rain dance could you pretty, pretty please stop it now! We are all very over the rain!!!!!!!!