Today is just one of those days when I wished so much that I could have just stayed in bed and covered my head with the covers in order to block out the reality of a Monday. I despise starting a week off especially early on a Monday morning when there is just so much to do. I have tons of work to catch up on from last week. When we have patients during the daytime it's very difficult for me to multi-task while monitoring a sleeping subject. My office is in the front of the building and the control room is all the way in the back with the patient rooms. So, yes, it has been a catch up morning for me this morning. First thing, I got a sad text from Kyla saying that she had been layed off from her other job. She had worried all weekend that it could be happening and sure enough, she was right. I told her not to fret over it. She has been miserable in the job for years which is one of the reasons she has been trying to get on over here at the lab full time. Over time, I'm sure, she will realize that it was a blessing and not a set back for her. 
Right now, I am so very thankful for a good job and insurance that I shouldn't even be bothering worrying about some of the silly things I worry about, but in true form to myself, I worry. I feel so aimless, like I have nothing going on and am stuck in a rut. Now, I am aware that in order to emerge from a rut or any other proverbial hole one must take steps. Right now I don't know which one's to take. It seems like the older I get the decisions are getting much harder and affect more people. I remember when I was a kid a hard decision was picking only one candy that I wanted at the store. Unless I was at Nana's store, then I could have all I wanted :) Love You Nana. On that note, I know how spoiled I am. I really am the princess of my family. When you wear the crown there are some responsibilities that have to be attended and sometimes I feel afraid of disappointing everyone. Maybe it is good to be aware of how small you are in the universe so that you are always looking for guidance and not assuming that you know it all. I have a friend, whom I am close with, that seems to calm me and somehow makes me feel like it all makes sense. However, I do not have the same effect over this friend which causes some doubt on my part to the point of resentment. So much of the time, I imterpret the moods as things that may or may not exsist but assurance rarely comes. Now, I am in fact a girl and we tend to over thing situations or imply that others are thinking just as hard as we are. There is a lesson in this I believe. Decide to yourself that you won't ever get upset or worked up unless you know for sure that there is something to actually get upset about. I miss the days when everything was easy and just made good sense.
Mom just called me and let me know that George Baddour passed away this morning. As sad as this fact is, I am super glad to no longer be employed at Munford Florist today. The people that worked with me would agree with me that those types of people who have touched so many others are very loved. And of course, people will want to show the love with showers of flowers. He knew many, many families in Tipton County and will be missed at the funeral home.
I should feel blessed to have all the loved ones around me all the time. And I try everyday to be as thankful as possible, but I do feel like I have no direction and I don't know how to know how. Today, Kasey took Grey baby to Covington to get his picture taken for the paper. I just got a text with a picture in it, and wow. As if all of you didn't now, he is a little doll! He has overalls on and crossed his little feet. Naturally, he threw up all over Phil even though his Mommy assured Phil he wouldn't ;) We played "Boo" Saturday night. He was sitting in his little car playing and I would lay on the floor where he couldn't see me and then jump up and say "Boo". Instead of crying or being scared, he busted out laughing! To make that even better, Yia-Yia got it all on film. He is just the cutest baby boy. Until next time, take care and if you know could you let me know.......
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