Those Who Can't Do Teach

For the life of me, I can't understand how men got to the state that they did and more than that how did we, women, get to be so enabling and just plain stupid. There were great women that fought for our rights to vote, to own property, and to earn wages just as a man would doing the same task. So why, after all the strife and struggle, do we submit to his every will at every situation. I know independent women that are about their work, life, and their own ambitions whatever they may be, but the majority of us are all still stuck in our kitchens behind our aprons catering to a man. Maybe I am bitter because I think and have always thought that men have the better end of the deals in today's society. They don't delivery babies, worry with getting fat (to our degree), held to impossible standards, or care about their behavior. When I say behavior what I mean is the "little" things like leaving shoes in the floor right where he took them off, leaving the toilet seat up even though they know that in the night as we are not turning on the light so as to not disturb his slumber and fall in the toilet water, leaving garbage about, not picking up his plate after eating, and so many more that I could list for days. Why? I don't get it, he doesn't get it nor will he ever with us running 100 miles an hour to make sure to that our tasks and his tasks are all completed. Seriously, I don't understand how my mother does it. She takes care of herself, me, my brother, his girlfriend, Grey baby, work people, family, and our friends. Her mind must never shut off! Maybe that's how mother's are wired, so that they can be sane and efficient all at the same time. I have this friend, and he's really wonderful in all kinds of amazing ways but he just thinks that it is all about his wishes all the time. He is considerate and kind but hasn't realized that I want more or something different. For what seems to me like eternity, he has kept me guessing or wondering what it is or isn't. My friends can't figure it out, my family either, and me least of all! I am beginning to wonder if I have made myself too available. Or in other words, a door mat for him and all his hang-ups. I know that he cares deeply for me and has for quite some time, but how long does one wait on a sign? A showing of affection to the point of knowing and announcing to the world, hey I care enough about you to be with you and only you. Even he doesn't know how long because day in and day out we are still stuck in a romantic rut of more than friends and less than....whatever. Gentlemen out there, please understand that we have a lot on our plates and deserve so much goodness from you guys. We need to be told that we are pretty even when we aren't, we need to feel in charge sometimes when we aren't, we need to be silly and laugh, we need to be loved and cherished as women not as one of the boys. We all get it, and some of us have trained a few good men to be good men. In my case, the ones that I have trained have moved onward to share my teachings with other women and have made good husbands and fathers. So, I am pondering that old adage,"those who can't do, teach!" Hopefully, this isn't my curse. LOL. I am just wanting something to click into place after years of struggle and heartache. Often I question whether this is all that there is to life, and I certainly hope not because if so, let me off the train right now. I am tired of it all and want to just be a child again when I was full of hope, joy, and wonderment thinking of my bright future ahead of me. You know, like a do over.... Until next time does anybody have all the answers? LOL. Have a wonderful weekend.